Friday, March 4, 2011

Not tryin to be someone, just tryin to do some things

This is simple math, but I still feel the need to articulate my idea about our strive to become something great. I was hanging out with a friend I hadn't seen since college last night, and as we were talking about the different things we were pursuing and hoping for, I had a realization. I wish someone in college had told me To stop thinking about who I want to be, and instead to consider what I want to be doing. Our culture has harvested a hunger for significance, not defined by what we actually do, but by who we are. I used to have a vague idea of what I wanted to do, but I knew I wanted it to be something "big". I didn't care how I got there or who I was advocating for, I just wanted be someone. My perspective of the way god is going to use me has since transformed. I still want to make a significant impact by serving vulnerable populations, but I also want to volunteer and hang out with refugees RIGHT NOW. I can do that! See, it's about what we can do, not WHO we want to be. If I am always dreaming about being on a stage in front of influential business leaders advocating for vulnerable populations as a 40 year old, I am going to miss out on what I could be doing as a 22 year old. I want to write a book, so I am writing, I'm not aspiring to be an author. I'm still dreaming big for my future and I'm not
Putting any limits on the way god can use me, but it's now more important for me to see how he is using me today. Who is he putting in my path to love now that will impact and influence my
Future? I want to change the world, but it's just important to me that my children think I'm a good mom. I'm taking it day by day and trusting that god is going to lead me to the place I am going. Significance should not be so heavily based on image, but by our ability to impact
Others through love. So to anyone feeling the suffocating pressures of becoming who you want To be, start focusing on what you can DO. It sounds a little backwards, but I'm right.